Tuesday, April 09, 2002

I don't know why but, the relationship between me and her becomes.... odd. I know that we might not be together, but I just keep letting my feelings flow. I want to control it, but I am not sure if I can and I would. I feel her at my heart, not my mind. I used to read that, I should love with my heart, not my mind. I used to love with my mind, and once, almost with my heart, but those can be considered mistakes because I have no idea for whether I can communicate with them. But this time, I am sure that I can communicate with her and I am serious when I am trying to talk to her. Perhaps she might think that I am too serious or sometimes too playful, but I really don't know what and how I need to be when I am with her. If I become myself, I might hurt her without knowing, because I am the type of person who speaks and acts according to my heart. Sometimes, or most of the times, I speak directly without thinking much, such as when I am making jokes or making fun of a certain people or a certain issue.

I am not sure if she will reject but I can only stay beside her.
I don't know why but, the relationship between me and her becomes.... odd. I know that we might not be together, but I just keep letting my feelings flow. I want to control it, but I am not sure if I can and I would. I feel her at my heart, not my mind. I used to read that, I should love with my heart, not my mind. I used to love with my mind, and once, almost with my heart, but those can be considered mistakes because I have no idea for whether I can communicate with them. But this time, I am sure that I can communicate with her and I am serious when I am trying to talk to her. Perhaps she might think that I am too serious or sometimes too playful, but I really don't know what and how I need to be when I am with her. If I become myself, I might hurt her without knowing, because I am the type of person who speaks and acts according to my heart. Sometimes, or most of the times, I speak directly without thinking much, such as when I am making jokes or making fun of a certain people or a certain issue.

I am not sure if she will reject but I can only stay beside her.

Tuesday, April 02, 2002

Not knowing why, but what I speak to the person I like seems to be jumbled up everytime I want to talk to her. Don't know why. I happen to be providing more than 1 definition to only one thing whenever I talk to her.

Saturday, March 30, 2002

This is what I think about life. It's like having a path to go, never will know how far is it, what comes ahead, and where you will go. The only thing you know is to get going.... Even though down time is inevitable, either for mental recoveries or for physical breakdowns such as getting sick, we will be standing up someday and continue the journey, just like a rising sun.